Oh well, hello. 

According to the calendar, spring is here. But I'm still reaching for my parka before heading out the door, so can spring please wake up and show its beautiful face? 

Okay, small weather talk aside. I feel like I haven't done a life update in a while. I'm actually curious as to whether or not some of you guys actually read my random rants, but recording my thoughts on this blog is mostly for my own joy. But if it's somewhat interesting to you, even better. 

I'm kind of freaking out because I realized that there is only a month left until finals begin. That's FOUR WEEKS. uhhhhhhhhh where did the time go? I'm not actually that worried about the exams, but what is freaking me out the most is the fact that I am already done with my first year of university. And then I do go through this cycle two and a half more times, and I am officially a graduated adult who needs to make money and pay bills. I know that I will be able to handle it, but it really boggles my mind to think that it's coming so soon. 

Not that I didn't know this was coming. If there is one thing everyone and their mother told me about university, is that it flyyyyyyys by. 

Because I want to make the most out of my last years as a student, I have been making extra efforts to be involved on campus and attend random parties as often as possible. When else will I be encouraged to get drunk often, volunteer at seemingly useless events, and be excused from any real responsibilities because I have the title of being a "student." I'm trying to take advantage as much as possible. 

At the same time, I feel myself getting older mentally that I think I will be happy to be out of school in a few years. For example, last weekend, I went to a frat party with a friend. It was my first frat party ever, as the scene never appealed to me. But I felt the need to at least experience it once, if only to feed my FOMO. I left after max 20 minutes. lol. It didn't help because I was sober AF, because I felt nauseous from getting food poisoning a few days before. I guess that's my own rookie mistake of going to a frat party sober. Word of advice: don't go to a frat party sober. You will only notice how unsanitary and savage it is. 

Partying aside, I have really been enjoying everything I am involved with on campus. I don't really talk to many people in class, so helping out at random events is where I can actually get to know people and gain facebook friends. (yay) And you can add such things on your fancy-schmancy resume and linked in, because we're all really into that right? 

As for classes and the workload, I feel confident to say that I have a handle of things now. Last semester, First was honestly a hot mess. It feels like yesterday, but also so far away. Don't you feel that way about anything in life? yeah, first semester I had a break down at least twice a week or at least started to tear up just because I felt so stressed and overwhelmed. It wasn't because I was doing badly, but just getting the hang of actually being completely on your own in terms of academics (profs are nice, but there is only so much they can do) was a lot to adjust to. Over winter break, I set a plan to stay on track with lectures. Learning an entire semester of material over a few days IS UNHEALTHY. And you will start giving off negative energy, start feeling bad for yourself, stop exercising, eat unhealthy, etc... it can go downhill real fast. 

This semester has been much better, as I trained myself to study at home. Partly because going outside is a safety hazard in Montreal, I slowly taught myself to restrain myself from going on netflix or stalking blogs for hours before staring actual work. What helps me is to write a time-table of your entire day. Even set aside 10 minute breaks for snack and internet surfing, and stick to it. Productivity will definitely improve, but only if you're committed to what you promise yourself to get done before the end of the day. 

It's definitely a learning process. Growing up, and learning to rely on myself for everything is liberating in theory, but kind of scary in application. I have so many thoughts going in my head, as I sometimes pause and observe my own growth from an outsider's perspective. I feel like I have real experiences I can share with you guys, other than what I wore or bought. 

I want to start sharing more of my thoughts, and it is my hope that you will share your thoughts with me too. 

To be continued on this journey of growing up, for real this time. 

xo, Dahye